Hot Cricket!

I’ve had MS since 2000, you look at me you wouldn’t know i have it unless your a close friend. After having my baby in 2000, I started getting headaches, and pain and weakness in my legs. I went to the doctor and asked for a MRI on my brain, he called me in the office late one night after hours to tell me i had MS and that he was going to send me to a neurologist. He walked out and I sat in his office and started crying. I have never even heard of this illness. So I went for a second opinion and the doctor said i was fine. Later, the symptoms were getting worse, so I went to another doctor. He told me about the illness and sent me right away to Indianapolis. They did a lot of testing on me and to come find out i did have it, i cried so hard i thought my life was over. They put me on shots right away.

I took shots for a year, but I couldn’t handle the symptoms, so i quit. The doctor later put me on another shot and I have been in remission for 9 years now. I still have a lot of symptoms, but my doctor saved me. If I wouldn’t of went to another doctor, I’d be in a wheelchair by now. Due to all the stress I was under and the ms symptoms, it destroyed my marriage and I was in complete denial. My husband was young at the time, and my thoughts and watching him worry about me like he did he was great, but I couldn’t do that to him. So I soon started acting out even worse. I later got divorced, but he didn’t want it and deep down and I didn’t, but he never knew why. He needed to have a normal life and be happy, and not take care of me.

I have friends and my kids that help me all the time and a boyfriend but his my escape from my MS. We never talk about it, he’s just there for me. I’m happy not thinking about it, but anyone with MS would know that MS is a lonely illness. Others wouldn’t know what we’re going through, even the hospitals here in my home town. Only my doctor knows what I go through, and he is there for me always.

My daughter came to me and told me she has been tired a lot and been getting weak. Her mood swings are crazy. Everyone just say’s she a teenager, and doctors say that your kids won’t get it, well I’ve heard different. I’m going to keep a close eye on her, there are a lot of teenagers that are getting MS. It’s coming out everyday more and more. Yesterday, my daughter and I were talking about it, and she was telling me the kids around here that have it.

People, this illness shouldn’t be ignored and you shouldn’t be afraid, because they are working on a cure and cause everyday. You are not alone in this! I’m going to start my own support group soon in Starke County, and maybe people that do have this will come and talk and get some information on it that others may not know. Don’t give up there is help.

Next week I’ll write more on this some things you can do to help some of your symptoms. I’ll try and show you its not the end of the world with this. Things like exercise, music, pets are all things can help with MS. Stress is one of our worse symptoms, music combats stress and is relaxing to the brain, water helps the muscles and pets are there so we are not alone. I have one, she’s great.

Remember this. The famous serenity prayer has it right,,….grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,”the courage to change the things I can,,.and the wisdom to know the different,”getting the wisdom part right is the biggest challenge.

Thank you for reading if you have anything that you want to say leave me a comment i’m here always to help.
Thank you
Pamela “Cricket”